Friday, August 24, 2012

Day +198

This past week has been quite hectic, both emotionally and physically.  We had to go up to CHLA on Monday and Wednesday.  Last Friday’s lab showed very elevated cyclosporine level (this is the immune suppressant which keeps his own immune system at bay, and it also makes Timothy very hairy).  His level should be between 150-250ish to be therapeutic.  Timothy’s level was close to 800.  It is suspected that one of the new medications he started since returning to L.A. has caused this.  When the cyclosporine level is this high, it can cause kidney issues.  So needless to say, I was very stressed out.  Let’s just say, I had a lot of thoughts and questions for our new doctors at CHLA.  My heart wasn’t at peace and I was very disgruntled at many levels… As I look back, the only thing that kept me sane was my husband’s level-headedness and putting my unwilling heart, perhaps forcefully, to trust in God.  It took a few days and lots of prayer to accept the simple truths I profess to believe.  GOD is the ultimate healer, not man.  And HE has protected Timothy even this past month with the medication issues.  With or without man’s effort and/or mistakes, God is in control.  And I am so thankful He has and is protecting Timothy.  Thankfully, his kidneys are fine.  As I opened my bible yesterday, of course, the chapter I was reading was Matthew 8… Jesus healing the sick.  How appropriate and providential!  Even when we are in the midst of our individual storms, as long as Jesus is with us, my family and I are safe.  Praise God!  Once again, I came to realization that no matter how much I fret and stress out, it’s not about me nor about my family.  It’s about how I can bring glory to Him.  Our family, Timothy’s sickness, trials both big and small, and my life are all ordained for His purposes.  Thank you for praying… as you can see we need His grace in abundant measures. 

2 comments:

  1. Wish I had a chance to talk to you last Sunday...will pray that his levels normalize again, Alice.

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    1. Even when we are in the midst of our individual storms, as long as Jesus is with us, my family and I are safe Nicorette. Praise God! Once again, I came to realization that no matter how much I fret and stress out, it’s not about me nor about my family

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