Day -6

It’s been over 2 hours of stalling, staring at an empty computer screen, contemplating how I should update today.  There are so many thoughts going through my head at this present moment.  Many people are suffering around the world.  I came upon a few new blogs this evening, in hopes of distracting myself from my current situation, to only bring me back to this reality of suffering.  Whether it’s cancer, BMT, rare diseases, or death, we are plagued with suffering.  And the common theme to all of these blogs I have encountered is faith.  Faith in God.  I have a great deal of admiration for these people.  I pray for suffering patients and their family members tonight.  May God give them healing, comfort and strength.

Chemotherapy is taking a poll on Timothy.  He was frustrated, fatigued and irritable.  He has developed some separation anxiety and insecurity.  I think he’s scared.  I knew this was inevitable.  But the reality is so much more than my anticipation.  Tomorrow, he starts on 3 different chemo treatment.  I have been warned by multiple doctors and nurses re: one of them.  They say 99% react negatively.  But there’s always that 1%.  We ask you once again to lift up a prayer for Timothy.  Thank you.