Thursday, February 2, 2012

Day -6

It’s been over 2 hours of stalling, staring at an empty computer screen, contemplating how I should update today.  There are so many thoughts going through my head at this present moment.  Many people are suffering around the world.  I came upon a few new blogs this evening, in hopes of distracting myself from my current situation, to only bring me back to this reality of suffering.  Whether it’s cancer, BMT, rare diseases, or death, we are plagued with suffering.  And the common theme to all of these blogs I have encountered is faith.  Faith in God.  I have a great deal of admiration for these people.  I pray for suffering patients and their family members tonight.  May God give them healing, comfort and strength.

Chemotherapy is taking a poll on Timothy.  He was frustrated, fatigued and irritable.  He has developed some separation anxiety and insecurity.  I think he’s scared.  I knew this was inevitable.  But the reality is so much more than my anticipation.  Tomorrow, he starts on 3 different chemo treatment.  I have been warned by multiple doctors and nurses re: one of them.  They say 99% react negatively.  But there’s always that 1%.  We ask you once again to lift up a prayer for Timothy.  Thank you.

4 comments:

  1. Praying... so thankful God holds us in His hand, especially through such hard suffering.
    Jess

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  2. Psalm 40:11 Let your unfailing love and faithfulness always protect me.
    Your faith reminds me of this verse "If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given to you"
    "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and your minds in Christ Jesus"
    Alice, seeing you living out your faith is very inspiring.
    We are praying for your family.

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  3. alice, i know only God can reach your heart where you are right now...

    praying that God will protect little Timothy during this whole process and that He will give you both the comfort that only heaven can bring.

    Nothing can separate you from the love of God. Love you, Alice. Thanks for updating.

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  4. Crying and praying with you and Daniel...

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